This morning I wrote out discussion topics to help me clear my thoughts for my discussion with my consulting partner and supervisor. I spent time clearing my mind, with soft, instrumental, inspiring music on the way to the office. As we began, I stated the purpose of our meeting and the outcomes that I was looking for.
We came away from the discussion I believe with some understanding that our desires we the same.
We also agreed to:
1. Meet on a regular basis to stay informed and in closer communication
2. Ensure that I had visibility to over all change activities
A little while ago, I decided I needed to move. I want to be closer to my office, quiet, my own space. My requirements are that I have at least two bedrooms, be able to live there alone, furnished, and for not much more than what I am currently paying, sharing a house. A lot of people were telling me that I would not be able to find it. But I kept my intention clear in my mind. Also, I only wanted to live in certain areas of town that make it convenient to get around and so all those details were in my mind as well.
I started looking about a week or so ago. And today, I found one on the internet… a two story, 2 bed 2 bath furnished townhouse, for a little more than what I am paying now! It’s an end unit in a small community, which is important to me. The neighborhood seems quiet. It’s not gated, which makes it easy to get in and out. And there is a pool and clubhouse that’s nearby. The unit which faces the woods, so I think it will be very quiet. There is a spacious tiled patio area, which allows me to sit and read outside. And parking is just a few steps away. Wow! How did I get this so quickly? I allowed it to happen! I wasn’t tied to how it was all going to happen. I just expected that it would all work out.
Friends were helping me find other people who had unfurnished homes / condos for a reasonable amount of money. But I recently gave away all of my stuff no longer wanting to store it or move it. So here we are. Other things that I have been able to manifest quickly, by allowing it to just happen?… Deciding to be involved in this program, given the time, effort, etc necessary to do it. I just made time in my life. Blogging… Initially, I really resisted this. What I have found is that other people are able to benefit from my writing as well. Energy Work… I was very resistant to this as I was very concerned about other people’s energy given where I was at the time. Now? I have decided to take a course on how to read and assist others in energy clearing. Wild, huh? Being loud… ha! Well, for this one… I think I really had to push being loud. I spend a good portion of my day. And now the townhouse! Since walk / running are now a big part of my weekends, I started looking around for trails that I might follow on my run days.
What are the steps I walked through to manifest these things into my life?
1. Acknowledging my fears or resistance
I think this step is very important. We can’t just pretend that life is rosy all the time, ‘cuz it isn’t. We have to admit when we are challenged, scared, unclear, sad… all these things. Sometimes the next best thing for us is something we have resistance to. This was true for some of the things I listed above. We also have to be real about our feelings with ourselves first, no matter what they are. Then we can be real and perhaps discuss these things with people who are close to us, our core.
2. Stepping through my fears
Once we acknowledge that we have our fears, or resistance, we need to make a choice. How do we choose? Do we decide to stay stuck or move through the fear, even though it feels uncomfortable and uneasy? Stepping through fears, focusing on ourselves, staying centered, making sure we are not worrying about the reactions of others before ourselves. Stepping through in the midst of the discomfort is not an easy thing. We can get angry, be sad, depressed, feel scared, but we take the next steps anyway.
3. Practice Seeing It, Doing It
Visualization is a great tool to allow things to come into being. Our only role is to envision the end… what do we want. We don’t need to worry about how all the little detailed steps will unfold. That job belongs to someone up above. We need to commit to ourselves our true desire through visualization. Sometimes, I speak it, scream it, dream it, with clear dialog. Sounds silly? Yes, I guess. But who cares if it works!
4. Let go… Allow, Allow, Allow
This sounds easy, but it is probably the most difficult step… especially for those who are a bit on the controlling realm of life. 
) We like to believe we have control, but that’s just a myth. I know when I let go, I am consciously aware that things never really happen according to my timeline. That’s very opposite of anything most of us have ever been taught in school, in by any ‘success seminar’. Things to keep in mind…Anything worthwhile is out of our comfort zone. Our growth comes from us moving through the uncomfortable areas of our life to live with more passion, joy, love. Certain things my ego is doing to get in the way
- wanting to be a creative being… my creation is it, why should anyone else need to, want to change it. The personality of the artist is that our creation is perfect just the way it is. So, in business, this doesn’t sit well with everyone. Others may have a perspective that they are trying to fulfill.
- wanting to lead… I’m the leader… follow me… well, what does one expect from a first born child? Ha, ha…I’ve been doing it this way all my life. So, when I have to follow, meaning it wasn’t my idea to do it this way, it get in a mood
– ok… catty…
- my smart ass look, sigh, eyes, body language… can get in the way of relationships that need to be bridged.
- wanting to have fun… I’m a fun, playful person. when things get too serious, especially when I don’t think they really need to be so serious, I want to laugh or do something to break the ice… I suppose this could be viewed as a little bit rebellious. Some people just don’t get it. There’s the other part of me that’s also meticulous about certain things that I do. As I change, I wonder why others are just not following my lead? (sarcasm… )
- ok, so I suppose there are moments… that I am not so angelic… but I think angels like to have fun. You know, they are here to help us, and perhaps spice things up a little too.
