Being uncomfortable with speaking up, and still practicing it is having a voice. The opposite is also true – Allowing it to flow without me being in control is just as important. It is the dance of opposites. What makes us uncomfortable, while we test things out, leads us to our strength and growth. When we pull back and allow, still speaking up as appropriate.
What is triggering my frustration? I believe that I have communicated my desires for my work team to perform and communicate differently. I have asked for direct communication… blah blah blah… I don’t think anyone is listening, responding, yet acting as if they are. What is my approach to dealing with the situation? Asking for their expectations – how this team is supposed to work together, each side, to see it for what it is. How do I do all this and still have fun? I don’t know. This was so annoying to me for hours and hours!
How is my ego getting in my / our way? Yes, of course there’s ego involved! I know that I have A LOT of energy tied up in all of this. There is a part of me that understands that I need to let go. There is another part that is having difficulty actually doing it.
I had a chance to let go while thinking about the power of prayer. What is prayer to me? It is the acknowledgment of the power of God, the Divine. It is a conversation with God, Jesus, Mary and all of my guardians, and angels. It is pure connection, the energy of manifesting our desires, it is dreaming and creation, it is connection to my soul, my higher self, my spirit, it is reverence, gratitude, asking, blessing of myself and others… it is conscious thought.
Conscious thought. Can we sit and listen, taking the ego out of the way and see our answers? Can we truly be that open? Sometimes this can be difficult especially if the answer does not align with how we want things to be.
How can I commune through prayer and listen without my own bias getting in the way? I think the more we are unattached to the outcome, the more likely we are able to do this. I do a few things to clear my mind… meditate, visualize, do my rituals including prayer. Sometimes I go to places that give me peace – church, me prayer or meditation area, the beach, any place out doors on a beautiful day. All these things allow me to let go of how things are at the moment, which gives me the space to allow other things to flow into my life.
Something I have found to be quiet profound, and is such a beautiful gift when I stop to recognize is that we always get what we want. We pray, have a conversation with our source, with full direction, specification, and our desires truly manifest. I speak out loud in my visualizations some times. In full conversation with the images I have in my mind. Now, I do this when I am alone so no one thinks I am totally crazy…. J But, I believe that sound brings higher vibrations and energy to our desires. I can not
Being as controlling as I was in the past, the one thing I have to remember the most is to let go of the time when I make my requests. Just because I can not imagine things always happening as instantly, does not mean it is possible. So I tell my self to remember, that all I desire does not come on my time, but on God’s time. This little thing, when I let go, allows things to manifest quickly.
